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Epilogue
Heero stalked towards the door of the safehouse, grim determination in his cobalt eyes. He knew what awaited him there, and he hoped he could keep the killing rage in check long enough to talk to him. Duo opened the door as Heero raised his hand to ring the doorbell. "Okaeri nasai, Heero," he said. "Let's go talk." "Hn." Heero followed him as he led him into the woods. They reached a glade. The light filtered softly through the trees, but there was enough light that a small carpet of grass had grown. Leaves littered the ground, rustling softly in the breeze. Duo sat on the grass and Heero followed his lead, sitting a little apart. "I know I hurt you, Heero, don't bother to deny it. You wouldn't have reacted so strongly if I hadn't." Heero grunted. "Let me explain why I did what I did," Duo said, unfazed. "Remember how I told you that Zechs was being nice to me? Well, he wasn't just nice, he fell in love with me. Note I'm not saying that I fell in love with him, yet, Heero. He worked hard on me to get me to realize what a complete jerk you are, and to realize that I deserved someone who treated me well, like he did." Heero clenched his fists hard, his whole body shaking. Duo stared up at the sky, not seeing. "I told you I loved you, and you acted like a jerk. I don't know if you realized at the time how much it hurt for you to reject me like that and pretend that I was just good sex to you, but I think even *you* can figure it out if you think about it long enough. You've hit me, put me down, and generally acted like an asshole to me the whole time we've known each other." Duo looked at him. He didn't look angry, in fact, his whole manner bespoke acceptance and calm. "When I told Zechs what our relationship was like, it even sounded abusive to *me*, think about how he looked at it." He looked away again, gazing up into the blue autumn sky. "Well, he convinced me. You don't deserve me." Heero leapt to his feet and started walking away. "Wait, Heero. You don't get to go, yet," Duo said sharply. Heero stopped walking and stood silently, his back still turned, his fists still clenched and trembling. "I wasn't finished. I still love you, Heero. That won't change, but I'm not going to let you do to me what you've been doing. What I want, is for you to clean up your act. When that happens, and you can treat me with love, I'll be yours forever. Zechs did succeed in making me fall in love with him, but I loved you first. Now you can go if you want." Heero remained still for a moment, then he turned slowly to face Duo. "I did a lot of thinking, too. I've realized that I don't know what it means to love, or how people are supposed to act when they're in love. But I do know this; Zechs was right." Duo's eyes widened and Heero moved towards him slowly. "I realized that after I hit you. You kissed Zechs for a reason, and that reason was because I deserved it. I realized the first time you visited me in prison that I loved you, but was too cowardly to say it. I want you to tell me how Zechs treated you, and then I will treat you that way. I love you. Please forgive me." Duo's jaw dropped and his eyes filled with tears. Startled, Heero dropped to his knees beside him, hugging him fiercely. "No, please, Duo. Don't cry. Tell me what I should do." Duo hugged him back, burying his face in Heero's shoulder. "This is a good start." :Milliard, I won't say I'm sorry, not yet. We'll see if Heero lives up to expectations, or if he really can change. If not, we'll see what happens. I love you both, but I loved Heero first.: | |
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